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Long time no see everyone! I just wanted to let you know that my blog has found a new home. I hope you will come visit me here soon! I felt like my blog here at Living Free had lost focus and purpose. I have since been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue and will be blogging at Heart, Soul and Strength about my journey learning to deal with chronic illness. Living Free began as more of a food blog and I’m just not in that season anymore. I will be sharing about food every now and then on my new blog and would be very blessed to see some of my friends in my new home:)

The Empty Dinner

Hubby and I went on a date night last night to a place called Bull and Bones. I had looked online before we went and it said ‘gluten free friendly’ so I thought this would be a great place to go! We got there and asked the waiter if he could tell me what was gluten free. He went to ask and returned and proceeded to tell me that all of their steaks were gluten free–duh, and all their ribs were gluten free if you didn’t get the b’bcue sauce, yada, yada, yada. Problem:1) I do not like steak–I may taste a steak once a year–or less! 2) You could not pay me to eat ribs–tried them–once  3) was NOT in the mood for a salad or chicken. Actually, I wasn’t in the mood for ANYTHING on the menu!! So, what did I order–absolutely NOTHING!! I figured why pay anywhere from $12-$15 for something I don’t even want. Hubby got his ribs and fries and I sat and enjoyed my water. I felt very weird because everyone kept looking at me like I was an outcast! I have never done this before in my whole life, but I was glad I didn’t eat just for the sake of eating.

After hubby ate, we needed to find something that I DID want to eat. We went in an ice cream place, a chocolate store, and a smoothie place and still-NOTHING! Can you believe it? We made our way to the health food store across the street and I FINALLY settled on some millet and flax crackers and hummus. I could eat hummus anytime!

millet and flax cracker with hummus

That hit the spot and I had it again for lunch today:) I also did end up getting a piece of chocolate at the health food store.

umm--yumm!!

I was craving peanut butter, which is kind of weird because I never eat it, but I went with it. I had a few nibbles of this last night and few more at lunch today. I’m trying to make it last 😉

Later, before we came home, I got a small cup of chocolate ice cream with peanut butter cups in it. This was at a different ice cream place than we first went in. It’s called Cold Stone and they have the BEST chocolate ice cream! I don’t know what’s up with the chocolate and peanut butter craving, but it sure did taste good! I was completely satisfied after eating what I really wanted instead of settling for an expensive meal that didn’t appeal to me. I am trying to learn to really pay attention to what my body is craving and I think it is helping me. I’m not as worried about food rules etc. and I didn’t feel one bit guilty over the ice cream!! I can have treats in moderation and there is NOTHING wrong with that 🙂

Have you ever gone out to eat and then ordered nothing?

What’s your favorite ice cream flavor?

No More Hiding!

Happy Thursday morning! I can’t believe it’s Thursday already, but I’m glad because that means tomorrow is Friday! That means I don’t have to work tomorrow 8)

I called this post ‘No More Hiding’ because for a while now, I have just been putting along like I am doing grand, when in reality, I have been sliding down the slippery slope of my old obssession with weight and bad body image. I have decided that it is high time I just be honest and admit, I HAVE REALLY BEEN STRUGGLING!! From now on, I plan to just be myself– for better or for worse!

The last few days have been pretty busy and I have still been working on sticking to my goals that I listed in my last post, but I forgot one. It’s a VERY important one too! I forgot to put on my list–DO NOT WEIGH EVERYDAY!! That can get me back into bondage with food and weight issues faster than you can say ‘Bob’s your uncle’ and I unfortunately had been going down that road. So, my goal is to weigh once a week–or every other week would be even better. I know some people don’t believe in weighing at all, but I’m not ready for that yet 😉

I’m going to see my nutritionist next Friday. I haven’t seen her in over a year and am looking forward to it. I just feel like I need some help getting my head on straight as far as what is best for my body and health. I am also having to step away from reading as many blogs for a while. Sometimes, the more I read, the more confused I get. I put VERY high expectations on myself and then beat myself up if I can’t meet them.

I have also started an online Bible study called ‘In His Image’ that really focuses on finding acceptance and satisfaction in Christ instead of a certain weight etc. AND, I have ordered a book called ‘You Are Not What You Weigh’. I have read this book before and I would recommend it to anyone who has ever struggled with body image etc. I am obviously trying to be very proactive in my fight against old habits! I think if we just sit back and let things slide–we get into BIG trouble!

1 Timothy 1:18-19 says, “I give you this instruction… so that by following them you may fight the good fight, holding on to faith and a good conscience.” I am trying to fight the good fight and hold on to faith instead of clinging to the worthless idol of being a certain weight.

Okay, so that was my honesty for the day–now on to some food!

I had the BEST brunch the other day. I bet ya’ll didn’t know that I LOVE burritos! Well, I do. I started out planning to make a tofu and potato hash and it turned into a black bean and potato hash instead. I adore anything with black beans so this really hit the spot!

black bean and tator hash

I shredded a few red potatoes in the food processor and placed them in a skillet with a little oil. Then I added onions, red pepper, zucchini and 1 can black beans. Then I put some of this mixture in a warm brown rice tortilla with a little salsa and pepperjack flavored soy cheese.

my burrito:)

That was the BEST meal I have had in a long time! I am discovering that there are certain types of foods that really get me in the mood to cook, but more about that another day 🙂

Gosh, I better go! It’s not Friday yet, which means I DO have to work today! Hope you all have a fantabulous day 😉

Whoa Nelly!!

Okay, so I didn’t stay away very long did I? I still haven’t had time for pics or interesting meals for that matter, but wanted to give a quick update on my P90X journey. In short, it’s over–for now at least. I’m pretty bummed about it but I wanted to explain why the sudden halt. In two words–STREP THROAT!! I have been sick for the last 4-5 days and have been glued to my couch for the past 3! I don’t know which is worse, working my fingers to the bone or being couch ridden for days!

I felt that it was important for me to share something I have learned over the last few days. Actually, this is NOT a new lesson for me, I just don’t always remember lessons learned. So, what is this profound lesson? PUSHING TOO HARD LEADS TO ILLNESS!! I’m not saying it is that way for everybody, but for MY BODY I need to remember my ‘limits’.

When I saw the Dr. the other day, he asked me how my gluten free diet was going and I had to be honest and tell him–not so good. I ate poorly on vacation and just sort of continued that pattern after returning home. On top of poor diet, I began intense exercise and was also working more than usual. All this put together spells disaster for me! This is the first time I have had strep since being diagnosed with Celiac several years ago. Before my diagnoses, I had strep over and over! Eating bad=very bad immune system!

I have also had to re-examine my motives in starting something as intense as P90x when I have struggled so much with being well and staying well. I have been asking myself over the last few days if looking a certain way is worth it and my answer is a BIG NO!! I will admit that I have been struggling with contentment with the body God gave me and I have been figuring out ways to change my body at the expense of good health.

Where do I go from here? I plan on really paying attention to eating foods that give me life and health and staying away from those that bring illness to my body. I also plan on getting back to what I LOVEwalking in the country and Yoga! If I do any P90X at all, it will only be a workout every now and then–for instance to focus on abs, legs etc.  I will also STOP counting calories, carbs, fat etc. That alone has been enough to drive me bananas!

I am totally aware of the fact that I can not do any of this without the grace of God, but I also know that He loves to lavish His children with plenty of grace. 😉 I learned in my Bible study today that we are to do ALL things to the glory of God. If I am just wanting to look a certain way, eat a certain way, or exercise a certain way to bring glory to myself, then my motives are really screwed up.

I need LOTS of prayer to be able to:

1-STOP counting everything I eat

2-Eat foods that bring health and life to my body

3-Stay away from foods that harm my body

4-Do the exercise that I love because I love it!

I love walks in the country

AND

YOGA:)

“So whatever you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it ALL for the glory of God.” 1 Corinthians 10:31

Is there anything in your life that you need to step back and re-examine your motives? Why do you eat a certain way or exercise a certain way?

I know this was a little long and maybe boring, but I would love feedback. I’m hoping to post often about how I’m doing with  my new goals, so please stop back by 😉

Family Matters

Hey peeps! Just wanted to pop in for a second. I haven’t been into the blogging world much over the last week and a half. I have been busy with family matters. I have THREE teenagers–that should explain enough 🙂 Life is good, just VERY busy!

I’m still P90X’n and still eatin’ good, but no time to take pictures, post etc.  I plan on returning to regularly scheduled programming when life settles a bit–whenever that may be. I may be 90 before that happens–lol!! 🙂

See ya!

I mentioned in my last post that I was going to give P90X a try starting on Monday. Just in case you’re wondering WHY I’m doing this–it is NOT to lose weight! I want to be STRONG, NOT skinny fat! Anyway, I was so excited about it, that I started on Sat.(the 7th). Today was Day 4 (86 more) and I am LOVING it!! One thing I love about it is that I don’t have to try to decide what to do on my own. I just get up, push play and GO! I think this is great for people like me that have NO idea what they are doing when it comes to strength training etc. I also really appreciate how Tony Horton makes you feel okay if you can’t do it all. I have been careful not to push so hard that I can’t move the next day. I have been sore, but not to the extreme that I can’t sit on the toilet–lol 🙂 Today was yoga and it was tough but felt wonderful! 

As for the food plan for P90X, well I didn’t even try to stick to Phase 1 which is pretty low carb. One thing I have learned over the last couple of years is, if I restrict any food group too much–I AM GOING TO BINGE eventually!! I am trying to stick to the Phase 2 plan as much as I can though. It is a 40-40-20 ratio (carbs, prot. and fat). 

Here are my eats from yesterday: 

best bowl of oats I ever did eat!!

You may have noticed they are a little on the green side–but it is NOT from my long lost friend spinach! I used this new protein powder that I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!! 

YUMMY stuff!

I had been using pure Spirulina in my smoothies and was pleased to find a protein powder that included it. There are LOTS of other goodies in this powder, but I won’t bore you with the details. I also got the Acai protein powder, but haven’t tried it yet. 

OMG! I almost forgot my yummy topping on my oats: 

put 1/2 Tbs. of this and 1/2 banana on my oats

For lunch, I packed this to take to the pool with me:) 

salad w/ venison roast, beans and lots of other yummies--dressing on the side

About three hours later, I had a peanut butter Think Thin bar–not pictured. 

When I got home, I was hungry again but not quiet ready for dinner so I had some plain unsweetened soy yogurt with 1/2 scoop of this protein powder–also not pictured. 

For dinner, I had a gluten free burrito with some chicken on the side topped with soy cheese–hit the spot! 

gluten/dairy free burrito w/ side of chicken and soycheese:)

 That picture doesn’t do this meal justice. Too bad I’m out of burritos. Oh well, I guess a trip to the health food store is in order 😉 

So there ya have it– a day in the life of a P90X convert. 

Better run now. I’m trying to be productive at home today. Cleaning other people’s houses for a living REALLY puts a damper on motivation to clean my own, but the dust bunnies are calling! Hope you are having a great week so far! 

Anything exciting in your neck of the woods this week?  

We are having my son’s (belated) 18th birthday party this coming weekend!!  Should be loads of fun! 8)

While we were in Florida last week, my hubby ordered something that I was VERY skeptical about. I told him I don’t know how many times that he probably shouldn’t have ordered it, but the deed was already done. I was thinking there is NO WAY I would use what he ordered–until today. What I am referring to is the P90X system! Now, before you say I’m stupid let me just say that after watching a couple of the workouts, I am pleasantly surprised! Before watching, I was thinking this is going to be WAY too hard core for me. Also, how would I get my love of yoga in, and what if I couldn’t do it or if I push too hard. Well, from what I watched it IS pretty hard core, BUT Tony Horton stresses to do what you can and that’s enough! I like him better already 🙂 One of the things I am MOST excited about is he uses A LOT of YOGA–YEEESSS!!!! Even in the Cardio x, there were sun salutations. 

Another reason I am willing to give this a shot is to have something my hubby and I can work towards together. AND, honestly, I have been in an exercise rut lately. We are hoping to start on Monday, so if you don’t hear anything from me after that–you’ll know I died–lol!!

Changing the subject now, have you ever woke up starving but NOTHING sounded good? That happened to me this morning! I went to the fridge about a dozen times trying to see if anything seemed like it would hit the spot and–nothing. I finally just decided to go with a regular breakfast of eggs and yogurt even though I wasn’t really feeling it.

eggs, soy yogurt w/ sunbutter, 1/2 apple

That was all fine and good but about two hours later I needed 2nd breakfast.

green smoothie minus the greens:)

Since I am not doing spinach any more due to oxalates, I have been making green smoothies with pure spirulina powder. My life without spinach isn’t so bad afterall 🙂 I usually use water, 1 cup fruit, 1 Tbs. ground flax, sunflower seeds, maca powder, spirulina and raw stevia–yummy, and holds me for hours–usually. I have been drinking this and lots of fresh veggie juice since I have been home from vacation and it is really good for my tummy.

Oh, and look what I found at the health food store yesterday–SO excited!

Gluten/Dairy Free Burrito!

I know, it doesn’t take much to excite me! Sometimes I just crave a good burrito! This didn’t stay together very well when I cooked it, but it hit the spot!

see what I mean?--falling apart but oh so tasty!

I was also excited to find these little goodies:

Mini Raw Revolution Bars--how cute is that?!

I LOVE the Raw Revlolution bars but it takes me days to eat one. The mini ones are perfect!

Last but not least, I’ll leave you with a new ADORABLE picture of the babies 🙂 They are growing so fast! I could just sit and watch them forever. TOO CUTE!!

Aren't they the cutest?!

This is the BIGGEST one! Looks just like the mama:)

 Hope everybody has a GREAT FRIDAY!!! I’m SO glad my work week is over and now I have the next FIVE days off–Hallelujah 😉

Have you ever attempted P90X? If so, what were your thoughts?

Any new food finds lately?